I am so darn tired of all the worries and the setbacks. I am so darn tired of all of these! Minsan iniisip ko kung kaya ko pa. Sobra na pagod ko. Parang pakiramdam ko nag-anak na ako ng ilan at pinatapos ko na ng college. Akala ko okay na ako pero parang walang katapusan ang isipin!
Hay.
Sometimes all I want is to curl up in a corner like a baby and cry my eyes out!
Sometimes I feel like life has this sadistic streak in it where it is happy seeing you miserable, down, scared, angry, endlessly worried.
It is freakin’ cruel!
I don’t even know why I bother being this positive person when every time I am happy or content something bad happens. I am endlessly worried about something or someone and I keep seeing one bump on the road after another. And I pray!
I am just so mad right now I don’t know who to curse for all of these!
F@#k!
I am talking about the good kind.
Good karma.
You did something good and you get back the kindness in some other form. I believe in bad karma. But now I believe in both. Good and bad.
It really comes back to you.
I guess when in your heart you love a person the same way you love a member of your family, a sibling, you can easily forget the hurt. Especially if you have been best of friends with a person for years and years.
I am now okay. I am choosing to acknowledge and focus on the blessings than dwell on the negative. I am choosing to squash the hurt in my heart. I am thankful for the lesson I learned in all of this.
I am choosing to move on.
Di ako agad maka-react kasi naubos ang sasakyan sa daan.
Akalain mo!
Kung gusto maraming paraan. Kung ayaw maraming dahilan.
It’s that simple!
Don’t give me BS because I can smell it from a mile away!
I learned my lesson now. It took me more than a decade to finally learn my lesson but now I already know…
Never expect anything so you won’t get disappointed.
I expected more from a lot of people because maybe I know in my heart I am capable of doing it for them. I actually have done it for them already so I thought maybe now that I am the one grieving again they will find the time to grieve with me. Alas, it was not to be.
But in all these things, with Nanay’s passing and the recent budget problems I had, I found out I didn’t really need a lot of people around me. I only need the true ones who will be there no matter what. Through full or empty pockets and stomachs… through thick or thin… through happiness or grieving…
Dedma na lang. Ganoon naman talaga ang buhay. The real ones will stand out during a tough time. They did. I would like to think I have been a really good friend. That’s the reason why I expected so much.
My sister told me that I shouldn’t feel disappointed but am I not entitled to feel this way when everything’s done over Facebook lang? Parang others lang talaga. Pero hmp! Dedma na. So be it.
Thank you, Kate! I was so touched by the offer of help. I wasn’t expecting it from you or even from Jhing because I know you ladies are living far away from here with your families. And yet, of all my friends, you two offered help kahit na I wasn’t asking for it.
Thank you!